shox: I had a burnout after PGL Antwerp
For the first time since the news of his benching on Team Liquid, shox has commented on the roster change.
Last Sunday the news of the benching of Richard "shox" Papillon and Team Liquid's coach Eric "adreN" Hoag broke out.
Since then there have been no comments from either of the two. Last night Richard "shox" Papillon broke the silence and commented on the news.
In a Google document, the Frenchman does a recap of the last six months. Here he explains how he intended to move to the US, but the many changes to the tournament calendar made it impossible.
- The worst part was probably the RMR with all the last minute's changes from Valve that forced the TOs to change their plans, creating a lot of extra travels, issues, troubles, and a lot of stress. As a result, in the middle of the season, it was a big blow for my family and me because this American life will not see the light of day as planned, at least not before maybe October 2022.As a consequence, I find myself having my life in France but having the life and agenda of an American player which immediately makes things very very complicated. I'm always on the move, I have no time to relax and recover from this overloaded CS schedule. I'm either in bootcamp, or in tournaments, or in media shoots, or in the US to do regional qualifiers like BLAST, RMR, Dallas Qualifer.
shox goes on to comment on the results (or lack of), that Team Liquid got in the first half of 2022.
- On the sporting level, as in all teams there are complications and I gave as much as I could despite the extenuating circumstances complicated to manage and live daily in order to give our team the best chance on the competitive field. We could see during the EPL where we beat Heroic and where we played a very close game against NiP that we could have won in order to go to the semi-finals that the training on European soil is bearing fruit and that we are on the right track.
After this tournament, we had to go back to the United States because there were qualifications to be done and the players being Americans and their lives there, they obviously go back home when they can. I could see our level regressing when we were there because the American training is far from the quality we can have in Europe, so all the work we had done was gradually decreasing.
At the end of his writing shox also reveals, that it was his own decision to be benched after a stressful time.
- At the end of the major, I had a burnout, I had to go home as soon as possible (that's why I wasn't present in Antwerp for the finals and I apologize for all the fans who were waiting for my presence). I also realized that from the beginning of January until the major, I was only about 25 days at home, half of them being on American working hours so from 7pm until 2 or 3am. The human aspect that requires a balance in my life that I have not had for 6 months, the choice to put myself on the bench was inevitable in my eyes.
Richard "shox" Papillon is now actively searching for a new team, while Team Liquid is testing out Mareks "YEKINDAR" Gaļinskis for the upcoming IEM Cologne.
